wow

I'm not so sure what to talk about. what i can talk about. why i want to talk about things. I'm incredibly confused lately.
I don't know what i want out of this life anymore. The way i'm treating it right now...well it's all going down hill. I do things that my family and friends don't approve of. and things just aren't ok. but i'm working through it. i have people that care about me. that will hold me at my worst moments. i mean MY WORST moments. serious.
it's just so complicated. i never thought i would come to this point. i never thought it would get this bad.
not just drinking and smoking. and ya. i do that..it's not like no one knows about it now. but just the simple things i do! like why do i have to be a bitch to some people. why can't i just get over things? why do i have to go thru these things?!

i hate this.
i don't like this life right now.
i don't like where it is going.
why does everyone give a shit about what people do with their lives?
i was walking around tonight and i would pass by those "YES! 102" signs about gay marriage...it would just infuriate me every time i passed one. what is this world coming to? why do people care? why isn't that socially excepted? they are just people. like get over yourselves people. life isn't all about you. it might not be ok for your religion..whatever. but your religion also tells you not to judge. to except others for who they are. treat others as though you would want to be treated...
it's a twisted life we are all leading.

peace.