Anger

Anger.
it takes over.
messes with your thoughts.
things become unclear.
and your actions become unknown.

the life you've led has nothing to do with how you feel.
everything is gone.
it's all a blur.
your face becomes wet.
hands are shaking.
feeling of anxiousness.
feeling of giving up.
feeling of screaming.
it's everything.
but it's nothing.

no understanding of why.
why are you like this?
why is this your reaction?
how did you end up with so much of it?
is it the life i am leading?
the people around me?
myself?
God?
why?

calm me down.
and it will come back again.